Starting Over

I think there are all kinds of ways you can start over in your life. I think sometimes God needs to take you back to basics. Unclutter the religious thinking and overtones in your life. WIth the new life groups I attended the Starting Point one and when I arrived I was asked if I understood what it was for. I wasn't sure what was going on, and I feel sometimes I miss things, not that I don't pay attention but some how I am just learning things after other people seem to know what's up. Anyway I went to the group and I kinda felt out of place a little. I grew up in church so I wasn't exactly new or in a place I felt I needed to learn the basics, nor did I have questions about what or why. I was quick to understand why  and I believe it had something to do with God bringing me back to basics. He is Installing and rebuilding my support system, my foundation on HIM. I love that even in the basics you can learn things even after being a Christian since I was 14 when I gave my life to Jesus, I was born and raised in Church. But I needed a foundation and I believe that sometimes when you go through life your foundation can get shaken a little, maybe a little cracked or chipped. But God know's what you need when you need it and I believe I needed my foundation reinforced and somewhat re-establish Why I claim to be a Christian. 

On My Way!

OK so I have been to 4 classes now it seems like the big issue is parking! There is virtually no parking on campus, on the plus side, I get to walk and so that is a great little workout ! So YEAH ME!!! Seriously I think it's great! I have Child development, Psychology, microbiology and computers. I am soo excited about learning in all my classes! I almost wish they were longer!! I took my first test at a testing center today. That was interesting! It was a pretest to see what we know on the subject. I guess on many questions, granted they were educated guesses, but I am thinking I have a lot to learn! I also just figured out part of my online class, LOL I am glad it's only the first week, I might have missed some things if we were further in the class I would probably be in trouble! I can't believe how much I like going to class! It's interesting how you perspective changes when you are older! I never even would have considered going to college when I was younger, I just wanted to live my life and do the best I could with what I had and maybe have some fun on the way. But now that I am older and wiser and maybe a little changed mostly for the better, I realize that I kinda knew that I wanted to go to school but  I needed to figure out what I wanted to do. I toyed with the idea of going for psychology, going to be a marriage counselor, when I was in school I would have probably gone to be a teacher, specifically a secondary English teacher. But I couldn't get past the idea of dealing with someone's rotten spoiled entitled child or even worse their parents! The idea of nursing came up a couple times before soo I believe that God gives you the desires of your heart! I believe he put the desire in my heart to go to school and He made it possible for me to go! It's awesome when you can recognize when God is working in your life. Not in a magic as a friend would say "an AWWWWWW kinda way." But in a tangible way that you know He is orchestrating every moment right down to you being in the right place at the right time, when it just feels right!! On the surface I feel a little lost, not out of place just trying to figure it all out! I am just going to act like I do until I actually do...so far I am killing it!! LOL!! I can't wait to get more into it and it's a lot of work and reading but I expected things to be a little more intense. I am not in the least concerned, "I CAN do ALL things through Christ who give me strength!! He believes in me!! So do I! :)

Countdown

Well, I have the supplies I need, as far as I know, or hope to have everything I need! I got some new clothes, I didnt want to look like I fell out of bed LOL. I got my books and supplies, I will see where my classes will be and then, ok I know where my classes are, looks like they are all close to each other, which is great! Just like going back to school, I did get a few outfits so I didnt look like I just rolled out of bed! Not that I do or would but I wanted to have some nice things so I looked decent . I am hoping I will look a little more up to date. Not trying to impress anyone but just want to not stick out too much! Well one more day, I am past the point of no return, it sounds soo absolute, when its said like that. However I am maintaining a positive and optimistic attitude! I am excited, although right now I am tired and have to get up way early tomorrow to sing in church, I love singing but I am not a fan of waking up before dawns earliest crack! TBC (To be continued....)

Word for the Year!

SO I have heard of people saying they have a "word" for the year. They either did one of those facebook apps or they prayed and asked God for direction. Well I have never considered a "word" of the year. Last year I was more concerned with not losing it and trying to keep things together, that my focus was on reading my bible and praying and "Eh Hem" trying to do the right things, even though sometimes it felt like things were falling apart and a little chaotic! SO I reflected on last year and I know that sometimes I was trying to do all the driving, I wanted to be in control while the circumstances I was dealing with seemed out of control. I felt like I was trying to "let go and let God," but sometimes I kept taking back the reins and pushing God aside. You know how we do, we want God to fix things and to make everything work out and make it ok, but then we butt in and get in the way, and even got in our own way. I knew God was doing things, I knew He knows better than I do, but giving up absolute control is hard!!! Let's face it being a mom, you have to be in control!! Especially a stay home mom and your husband is on the road all the time so you're the one taking care of the home, the kids, the bills! Isn't the idea of the perfect wife and mom is having it all together, and being in complete control of your family and life? Yeah I am being a bit melodramatic you get the idea. Anyway I was reflecting on my past year and granted there was a grip of awesome things that happened and God did bless us soo much in spite of my over zealous willingness to help him out! What a concept that GOD does not need our help!! In fact He doesn't need anything from us except our willingness to give up everything to him! Yes everything, our children, our husbands, our girlfriends, our boyfriends (if you're not married) our marriages, our homes, our vehicles, our jobs, our bosses, our pets, our money (ouch that stings a little!) and most of all OUR HEART! How do you give that up?! Then the "WORD" hit me! "SURRENDER!!!" I wanted to trust God for everything, I told him I did, I gave him my family, my husband, my marriage, my home.....my heart, gave it all to him, but, you cant give anything up completely until you are willing to surrender!!! The Bible says Why do you call me Lord, Lord and not do the things that I say? Lk 6:46. When Jesus is LORD of your life then you don't have control, you may have a false illusion of control, but then He comes in and lovingly reminds you, "HEY MY CHILD I GOT THIS!" what an amazing comfort to know that you don't have to be in control! It may seem contrary to what seems natural, but when you surrender completely to Him, your job becomes a whole lot better! He says "I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, plans to prosper you for a hope and a future! Jer 29:11 I think I am going to let Him do His plans, for my life! His word also says, Being confident (Not timid, or shy but CONFIDENT!! That the God you serve!!)  of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ; Phil 1:6 He WILL complete what He began in your life!! So my word for 2016 is SURRENDER! I dont know exactly how that will work or what absolute surrender is, I have an idea, and I know I cant wait to see what God has in store for me when I do!!!